what the....

I have spent the last 2 days walking around like a zombie. Opening up on this blog is more than I can do, I have to stop for a while, until I can feel like I don't know until I can feel like a person worthy of being heard, my body has failed me, I tried to be a good mom, I wanted to be worthy person, I feel like a failure, like I failed the world and especially my Saint. Like I failed life, like I am unworthy and will continue to be and i hate that I feel this way....Re-reading this it feels awkward but true so I am putting it out there.